Up next a rant about what is bothering me, don't feel like it? Don't read.
Today, everything that has been bothering me for these past weeks caught up with me. In a world where everybody says they're "good" ,"great" and make their lives seem perfect to everyone, I decided not to lie, I don't feel happy. There, I said it. This constant worrying about trivial issues that I should ignore is really just making me feel blue. I feel like I hold on to things simply for the sake of it. Bottom line: I'm not so sure about what I want anymore. I've built expectations towards my relationships with family, friends, career, school and social issues that now I want something else, different. Counting down the days until I finally have a trip away from my country is the one thing that gives me a little hope, because I need a break, from the daily routine that I can't ignore for now, and it's been due for a while. I love my country, but I just need a change, even if it is for just a few days. I think I'm going to take a trip south of the island as soon as I get done with my last final. Just two months left.
Sometimes, when you give too much of yourself and recieve nothing or little in return, then it's time to hold back. Goodbye.
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Don't worry girl! You have the right to not pretend everything's fine and to say that you're not feeling happy with something. It's alright! Always look forward, never look back. It may sound impossible, but that's the only way we all can keep on going in this difficult and crappy world. "Only the strong survive."
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